It will be better this year...

Last February 14th, was Chinese New Year Day. I love the idea that in once year I get to make 2 New Year's resolution one for each New Year that the world all-out celebrates. Wow!

I was thinking that for the regular January 1st 2010 New Year I would continue to work on a better and much improved ME, and I believe (if I may say so myself) I am making some good headway on that.

And for the Chinese New Year February 14th 2010, I have resolved that I will steer clear of people who still believe that rose colored glasses are better than a good bitter dose of reality.

I am referring to people who talk about how life in the USA is full of misery and agony and too much economic struggle. I mean the whole world is feeling the economic crunch - HELLO~!

And to those who think the US citizens are crap for trying to help HAITI by televising it - I mean c'mon - ever heard of massive telethon?

And to those who also say being in BsAs Argentina is 100% times better in the US, what bubble address are you staying at in Buenos Aires? There are crimes everywhere, but at least in the US, I can leave my purse not tied to the chair when I have to pick up my order at the restaurant - try doing that in Buenos Aires. People who write and rant about how lousy the US is - is bitter and negative. There I said it! Now sue me!

I believe that this year, once I have steered clear of any negative, untrue and just downers of a vibe giver I should have a better year.

Farming has really turned me around 360degrees. Things are not as do or die as before. Rain always brings hope that things might just grow again. The land is where everything begins and I like that.

My realm of reality is now more subdued, nothing fazes me anymore, I would like to think that there are people in the world who relies on me to help them provide food for their family and selfishly - that is what makes me - ME. It gives my daily work meaning and by golly - I like that feeling. So to all naysayers out there - bite this and then some!!

2010, there are better things to come, and I for one cannot wait to face each day. I am loving this.

It is the 14th of February 2010

I would like to think everyday is Valentine's day, the presents are never bad :-) but just the thought that lovers do not subscribe to the commercialism of this wonderful occasion. I am hoping that sweethearts would celebrate this day of hearts every single day.
It has been awhile since I last posted, things have been crazy lately..more like loony really! But things have settled down a bit and the only thing I am waiting for is my DMV license to come in the mail. Everything else is ready for my next trip to the other ends of the world. Work, lots of work up ahead for me - but I am revived and invigorated.
I am left not wanting anything for this trip. To resolve to oneself that life is good and that bad times too passes with a promise of better times - keeps me going strong.
R and I are in good terms again. We cannot keep a love like ours just die, it has a life of its own and too strong for even the two of us to fight. Distance has in good part helped us heal, and scars and scabs will be there forever but the pain has ebbed to a negligible degree. He and I are both at our happiest when we are both happy at the same time, and a very good relationship takes a lot of work. And this time, I am willing to make a concious effort not to be on the negative and try to live just for the moment - it is more meaningful and sweeter that way.
I am taking this one day at a time, and so far so good. I have been heartbroken and it is not fun, but healing is just a miraculous process that - when people tell you "what does not kill you makes you stronger" is true, and you can take my word for it.
Happy day of Hearts to everyone out there. There is no feeling like being in love. God knew what he was doing when he created this feeling of kindness and gentleness called - LOVE.
See ya another day. Take care.