Where....

......where.... do I go from here?

You see, every night as I lay down to sleep I say my prayers just like I have always done since I was five years old. As I clasp my hands together with closed eyes and with all my heart I express to the higher power that I appreciate my blessings and my gratitude for each single day. Tears included.

Everyone I love was kept safe today, I smile when I say that. I pray for strength and for the pain to ease in my heart. I pray that tomorrow will be better than today. I thank Him for Love, pain and all. I know He is good but sometimes my prayers do not come out as I wish they should.

There is a reason for why things are different.

But above all I pray that I see light as to where I am to go after all these....

I humbly seek peace in my heart (and one day very soon) I will find it.

I still pray...