This is me walking away....

Yesterday was a blur to me. I remember bits and pieces of it to be honest. All I know is today, I am sleepy, very sleepy. I did not get much sleep last night, it was a long night. I woke up with a stiff neck and sort of just dragging myself all day.

It is difficult to be the new me when I seem to be faced with the same all around me. I really need the change and space. But I comfort myself with the fact that soon I will get the space I need to keep the changes that I have worked so hard to achieve these last couple of months. I believe in the new me, it seems tougher to continue the process at this very moment, but I will be strong.

I promised myself I will not say anything negative that can hurt anyone, even if others still are the same way they were to me. I will not take hurtful comments personally. I have stopped giving other people that power over me. If they think light-hearted comments cannot hurt, they do. I am working towards getting past that now. I just need a day or so to process the tinge of pain and no anger overwhelms me.

This is me walking away....

I hope to be better in the long run. Each day is tough as I continue to grow and be myself. I am a woman and I know what I should and could do for love and friendship. There are relationships that are healthy and there are those that are corrosively toxic, I can see that now. And I have to choose. Sometime soon I can step away from all this and be the deserving victor that I am. The scars and hurt encounterd will be my badges of honor and survival.

I take a deep breath and then as I put a period to this statement, I can say that yesterday was just that - the past.

I am human and still gets hurt. I am strong but have my moments of weakness. Sometimes people around me just do not know that they have hurt me and that is sad..so I have learned to just detach myself..distance myself..and this is me walking away....

And with my head between my hands I say...here we go again.Butt for me I am so past the pain - remember no one can break a broken heart. So I just walk away..it is really for the best.